Psalm 61, kind of

I'm praying, I'm singing, Oh God,
Hear me and answer
From the furthest pieces of my motivations, from imperfect grounds I call to you
when my heart is tired, and when I doubt
Lead me to the rock that is more firm that I
Because you have saved me.*
But really, you have. It's Historical.

Can I please experience your presence?**
Can I please be directed by your spirit, filled with your spirit again?***
Because I've been praying, and seeking, albeit with failing motives and misplaced desires,
And moreso because you've called me your son, adopted me into your family.

Jesus, you are king. Live forever.
Would all the generations see your reign of hope and love and peace and joy!
Keep your throne above, and in my heart;
You are steadfast love and faithfulness. Watch over me.

So I will sing more, and pray more, forever;
and every day, in the meantime.

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* from anxiety, and from a need to prove myself, and from the need for attention from other people.
**I know I don't always believe it's possible, that you do or want to, but your word says so. (see Acts 3:20)
*** Same doubts, but hoping/expecting. (see Acts 4:31)